CONSTANT CHANGE

I'm wearing my high school uniform now as I'm writing this entry. I was looking at my photobooth pictures on my laptop and it's very nice to look back and realize how much things has changed. The oldest pictures on my laptop was 5 years ago and I was second year high school that time. I have pictures with my friends, classmates, with my mom, and a decent amount of selfies. I'm really glad that I go through my old pictures, it's an effective way to distract myself from all the things that's bugging me.

It amazes me and somewhat scares me that everything are really meant to change. I can't even believe that I look different now. I mean, of course my face is supposed to change but I guess we won't notice how much we have changed if we won't look back or unless we look at our old pictures. I don't know about you guys but seeing how much I have changed for the past 5 years scares me. I can't help but wonder how things will turn out 3,5,10 years from now. 5 year ago I never would I have imagine that I will be who I am today. I never expected things to turn out this way. All the things that I planned for myself before didn't happen. If I know that things will happen the way it did I should have prepared myself for it. Again, no regrets, but I wish I never took things for granted.

I'm twenty now and all I can say is life is an unpredictable journey that forces us to change and adapt on things that it would throw our way. We can't expect good days unless we haven't go through a bad one. We won't know what real happiness is unless we have experience what it feels to be broken. We wouldn't know what success feels like unless we push ourselves and experience failure. We will never know what life is if we are afraid to live. Because even if we wish to take a break from reality, we can't. Wether we like it or not, days will pass, so we need to keep up with time and live life to the fullest. We should be prepared for the constant changes and enjoy what we have now. Because everything will pass, and let's be honest, whether we're going through a rough time right now or if we're having the best time of our life, it would be always fun to have a great memory to look back.

Ok... everything that I have written are the things that I want to say to myself. lol. I never pushed myself to my limit. I'm still living inside my comfort zone, and I'm scared to take a risk. But I've come to realize that the only thing that I should be frightened of is the moment I look back years from now and realize that I never really enjoyed life because I was afraid to take a chance. So I would like to take baby steps to achieve my hidden desires in life. I wish soon I can share here on my blog how I took a leap, how I conquered my fears and fulfill my dreams with the help of our Almighty Father.

That's it for now.
With love,
Klaire

BUSY LIFE = BLESSED LIFE

"This is one of the busiest term ever. I cannot wait for this term to end" - me every term. LOL. But seriously, I only have 4 subjects but the loads of work that I'm carrying is too much. I barely have any free time and I'm already lucky if I get a 6-hour sleep at night. But of course, working out is still a priority, but other than that I don't have other "me" time. It is really true that in college, even if you want to cry because you cannot handle the stress anymore, you must hold back your tears because you don't have time for drama. The struggle is real. Sometimes when I'm on my way to school and I can't hold back my tears anymore, I just let it all out. I'm lowkey sobbing and I think few people have seen me cry in the subway but IDC. I just want to sleep.

Recently some of my highschool friends got their diploma already and some are just gradwaiting. Whenever I open my instagram account and see my friends having a trip to somewhere, I can't help but feel envious because they have so many time to do the things that they want, and here I am struggling to fit all the things I need to do in 24 hours.

Despite being busy and even if from time to time I just want to cry out loud, I must admit that I still enjoy my course. I have no regrets that I'm taking up Interior Design. I was hesitant before to take this course before because I know how time consuming it is, but with every plate and plans that I'm doing, I become more and more hungry to do better and excel in everything I do. I love Interior Design and I must say that I feel blessed that I get to study every aspects of it. I cannot wait to graduate, get a job and share my design with different clients. All of this for our Father above whose presence have never left me. :)

PS: I'll be sharing some of my plates and projects on my next post. see ya! x

New Chapter

I have a really exciting news and I'm too excited I don't know how I should say it. I want to make this a super special post (because it really is!) but I don't have any idea on how I should make this extraordinario so I'm not going to make any fuss anymore I'm going straight to the point.

So.. I'm going to study Interior Design!!! Funny how my last post is about me ranting about Interior inspirations and not taking up a degree in Interior Design, but now I'm really going to study Interior Design. For real! I didn't know that my plans on taking up Interior Design would push through but now that it is going to happen, I'm really glad that I tried applying to it and fortunately, I passed. I know that this is not going to be easy, I'm fully aware of that. My friends and family already warned me enough. I already have my flowchart and the subject are quite intimidating. I'm not good in drawing but I'm really willing to learn. I actually emailed one of my most favorite interior designer and she gave me an advice on what to expect on the field. I'm very nervous because besides on the subjects, I'm also a transferee so I need to be extra sociable so I can have new friends! I'm aware that taking up this course would also mean that I should be ready to all the sleepless nights and stressful plates that is needed to be done on time. I'm expecting for the worse so I won't be too surprised and overwhelmed on all the works that will be given to me. I chose this, so I need to persevere and do my best.

It was hard for me to leave my university because my friends are there and I'm going to miss the campus. My friends and family were actually encouraging me to just stay in my university but it is just hard for me to study the course that isn't my interest. I want to prove them all that I can do this. First time in my life, that I'm really motivated to study hard. haha! But I'm actually aiming for a scholarship because I know that this course is really expensive. My 3 older siblings are also in college so just imagine the tuition fees that my parents are paying. So having a scholarship would rally mean a lot. I can do all things through Christ.

I'm going to update every now and then. I'll really try my best to be active here.

~ "God wouldn't have allowed it unless He had a purpose. Don't just go through it- grow through it."