time check: 2:45 am
what the hell i cannot sleep!! I'm so done with my feelings. I'm drowning on my own thoughts and I just want to stop pondering about this thing that has been bothering me since Saturday. I'm debating with myself and I feel like a complete coward because I know what I want to do but I don't know what will happen next if I do it, I'm not even sure if there's something that's gonna happen.
But ok I made up my mind. I'm acting like this for the past 20 years. I always overthink and I always end up doing nothing and I feel like I lost a lot of opportunities because of my shyness. Fckng scared of rejection but whatever I'm gonna do it. I'll do my part, then whatever happens happens.