Saturday, December 5, 2015

2015 RECAP

2016 is fast approaching. There are only 25 days left before this year ends. It is too early for a year ender post but you know me, I seldom update my blog here so why not make one right now while I'm still on the mood. hehe.

2015 was a roller coaster year for me. There were so many ups and downs that happened. This year went by so fast but I can still recall the things that happened to me during the past 11 months. This year didn't start really well for me. 5th of January I was brawling my eyes out because I discovered that I won't be able to go back to school yet again. I have to wait for May before I can start my studies again and there were lots of anticipation that happened. I wasn't sure when I can enroll because of our financial problem. February was the reservation of slots and March was the enrollment. I was praying really hard during those time wishing that I can enroll so I can go back to school on May. Thanks God I was able to start my new life in this new school that I'm now attending.

May 13 was the first day of school. May 15 was the day I met my crush. haha! But nothing really happened between the two of us. I promised myself that I'd concentrate on my studies so that's what I did. Ok, so there were a little stalking that happened but who doesn't stalk there crush on social media, right? lol. I'm not sure if he likes me but I can feel that we're both too anxious to talk to each other. He has actually a pretty good influence on me... I have a morning class every Tuesday and Wednesday and I was never late for my first class because I know what time he arrives in school so I have to adjust so I can have a glimpse of him to kick start my day! HAHA! we only have the same class every Friday so I only get to see him once a week if I won't make an effort to adjust my schedule for him. I think I deserve an A+ for my effort on that one, yea? haha. But the term ended last August 14 and I never had a chance to see him again. But I don't really mind. you know why? Because 1 month after that term ended I added him on facebook at 2 in the morning. I can't sleep because I was battling with myself if I should add him or not. I did sent him a friend request though but guess what, he didn't accepted my request. I saw him accepted this friend request from another girl (which I was super happy because the girl that she added has 50+ mutual friends with me so there are many connections right) only did I know that that was the girl that she was courting. I didn't took it really hard because I was still pissed that he didn't accepted my friend request (which I cancelled btw) LOL HAHAHA! But they just broke up 3 weeks ago. I'm not stalking him anymore I promise, but I just checked out the twitter of his girl and saw that they broke up. Now the girl is tweeting about trust issues. I wonder what happened between the two of them. haha! But I'm 80% over him just need to drain the last 20%. LOL.

So moving on... Last July 2 my Mom went to the US of A and she coming home next next week. I can't wait to see her again after 5 months!! It is the first time that I didn't see her for that long. It wasn't easy. There were several time that I'd cry because I miss her so very much. I just can't believe & I didn't know how I survived these past few months without her. Here's quotation that I found months ago: "You will never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have"

Most of the things that happened to me this year turned out unexpectedly. But I wouldn't wish for things to turn out different. Every night the only prayer that I'm asking God is "Let your will be done" and if these are all the things that God had planned for me, then who am I to question it. I cannot wait for 2016. Im a little bit nervous but I'm excited to see what God has instored for me.

Sunday, August 23, 2015

time check: 2:07 am
It is not unusual for me to wake up at this hour. I've read somewhere that maybe if we can't put ourselves to sleep, maybe because we haven't talked to God yet. 

We're busy running our own errands during the day so we tend to fall back to sleep right after a very long day. But sometimes we can't sleep even if we're already tired enough. Whenever I wake up at this hour and I can't put myself back to sleep, I usually take this time to reflect. For me this is the perfect time to read His word and reflect on it. I always feel at ease every time I do it because it feels like I'm really having a one on one conversation with Him. 

When was the last time you actually talked to God? He wanna know how your day went. God is longing for you. He wants to know how you feel. Talk to him like He's your best friend. He understands all your struggles, all your pain. Sometimes we tend to stress over things that we shouldn't stress about. You have a problem? why don't you surrender it all to God. Wherever you are, God put you there for a reason. Let Go of things that bothers you and Let God handle it. God's plans is always better than ours so trust in Him. Have faith and let God take over your life. Talk to him. If there's someone who can truly understand you, it is Him. Ask for his guidance and let his will be done.

Sunday, August 16, 2015

Thank You Lord God!

It's my birthday tomorrow and it's a little bit odd that I don't feel excited at all? Maybe because I don't have any plans... is this a sign of getting old? lol. I used to have several plans that I want to do a week before my birthday and have another plan for my actual birthday, but for this year I have none. I don't even feel like it's already my birthday again tomorrow. I was supposed to go out with my friends but I've been feeling dull these past few days and I keep on turning down plans, I don't feel like responding to any of my messages, I tend to shut people out... for short I just want to be on my own and complain how lonely I am. haha! It's becoming a hobby. lol. But seriously, I don't have plans for tomorrow except to workout and finish my plate. I still have a finals on Tuesday and I just want this semester to end and have my 5 day term break already. ugh.

Anyway, I'm turning 19 tomorrow (yes, I'm only/already 19) I still remember how I celebrated my last birthday and what my birthday wish was. I asked God to give me a memorable year and indeed, he gave me a VERY unforgettable year. There were a lot of unexpected changes this year. I wouldn't have thought that things would turn out the way they did. So far, this year is probably the most stressful year of my life. There were times that I was on my knees and I was asking God to fix all the mess and make everything work out, there were times that I just want to give up on everything and I was losing hope. I wouldn't say that I had a pleasant year but I won't say that I had the worst year of my life. Despite all the strenuous circumstances that God has given me, I'm really thankful that He let me experience all of it. I wouldn't wish for things to go the way they did but I'm still happy it all happened because I became closer to God. And I think that's the best thing that has ever happened to me and I'm really grateful that he did something to draw me closer to Him.

For my birthday wish this year, I just want to be genuinely happy. I want my loved ones to be happy especially my parents. I want to excel on my studies and make my parents proud. I don't want to wish for things to happen this or that way, I just want God to have his way in me. I want his will be done. I surrender myself to him and I trust His plans for me. This is my last year as a teenager and I can't wait to build new memories with God.

Thank you Mom for giving birth to me and thank you God for giving me the gift of life.
Live Jesus in our hearts, forever. That in all things, God may be glorified.

Saturday, August 1, 2015

Uni update

I actually forgot that I have a blog and that's my excuse for not posting for quite a long time. hehe! Anyway, 2 weeks from now I'm done with first term. Gosh it was so fast! I feel like we're just floating through time! It's already August (MY BIRTH MONTH!!! YEYY!) and -ber months is approaching again. 4 months went by so fast and to be honest it was a so-so experience. There were times that I don't wanna go to school because of my long breaks in between classes but I'm just so excited to learn everything related to my course. I've fallen in love with interior design more and more everyday and I can't wait to learn more in the future! Although I'm the "beginner" in our class (LOL) it's a challenge for me to do better on my plates. As much as I want to show you all the plates that I've done I don't think it's blog worthy enough. haha! maybe next time I'll show you some of it. I'm still not good at drawing but I think I improved... a little. LOL. I'll do better in the future I'm sure. :)

Anyway, that'll be all for my uni update. See you on my next post! x