2016 RECAP

I have 8 drafts here on my blogspot account and I think I have more or less 5 drafts on my tumblr account. I can't finish any blog posts that I started, so I'm not even sure if I'll be able to publish this one. But since I want to have a year ender post, that's going to be my motivation to finish this one :P But before anything else, Happy Holidays to you! It feels weird that we're on page 363/365 of 2016. I can't find a perfect word to describe this year. Maybe a big question mark will do, because I don't get this year either.

I keep on seeing posts about how bad 2016 has been for a lot of people. TBH, I think 2016 ain't that bad to me... well compared to 2014-2015. I would say it is a safe year for me. It took a while to sink in that it is already 2016 because I feel like I'm still stuck in 2012. Sometimes I'm dumbfounded thinking that I'm already 20 year old. Because I swear, I feel like I'm still 16 years old. Oh well. So just like what I said, 2016 is a safe year for me. I didn't have any new year's resolution for 2016 other than concentrating on improving myself and I think I deserve a pat on my back because that's what I did for the whole year. I concentrated on my studies, I tried to avoid any problem that would only stress me out, and I learned to ignore what others think of me, because I am me and I'm gonna do whatever the hell I want. But out of all that, I think that greatest improvement that I had for this year is I can easily move on. If you don't like me, then fine. It was nice meeting you. Goodbye. haha! I always had a problem of pondering too much and thinking what is wrong with me if a person that I like doesn't like me back. But seriously, I'm done thinking of what is wrong with me. I'm still trying to be more sociable and less timid, but no guy has ever attempted break that wall and tried to get close to me. I'm still waiting for that person to make an effort.. but for now I'm good with my K dramas. :P haha!

Looking back on what happened to me this year, I honestly cannot think of something special or extraordinary. All I can think of was how exhausted I was because of Uni, but I still enjoy it because I love my course so even though I have a love-hate relationship with Interior Design, I'm still motivated to finish all my requirements.

   

February 2016.

Last February, we're asked to do a design for a table setting for my Interior Design Principle class. We were grouped by 4 and I'm proud to say that we got the highest grade.

June 2016

If I'm not mistaken, I think I made a post about this one. This was my midterm for my Interior Design 1 class. It was my first time to design a bedroom and T&B floor plan, RCP, moodboard, elevation, contract, and concept, and of course manual perspective for someone. We had our own assigned partners and we were asked to design a bedroom and T&B for them.

November 2016

I almost forgot to share. I got accepted in an architecture organization last October! It was their first time to accept Interior Design students in their org so we have to make good impression. We have no choice but to be attend all the org meetings and attend to different org events. Last November, our org hosted a halloween party and it was my first time to attend a party after 4958309 years. HAHAHA! Seriously though. It was fun. I invited my high school friends. But I'd rather stay on my room and have my sleep. :)

December 2016

Finally! A breath of fresh air. After pulling several all nighter, I get to meet my high school friends again. I'm trying to make the most of my Christmas break since I won't be having any other break after this, until August next year. 

I still have a lot of pictures that I want to upload, but my phone isn't cooperating now. I'll try to add more, but for now let me publish this one first before I save it as a draft. haha!

my bae

Condo Unit Project

I thought I had enough of our midterm last time (which I posted last June) but I was wrong. Now when I think about how much I thought I was worn out from all the plates that were given to us before, I just laugh at it. Should've thank my prof for being nice to us for not giving us the amount of stress that I experienced from our mid term this sem.
Anyway,  I'm officially done with my all my mid term projects/tests. I was exhausted as fuck. No. Exhausted is an understatement. I'm extremely tired almost close enough to being numb. I don't drink coffee because the smell of it makes me dizzy but I had no choice. Didn't get enough sleep for a whole week.. I actually didn't sleep for 3 days. I was awake for 72 hours. Took a nap for 1-2 hours so I'd say I'm awake for 70 hours. But after presenting my design, I've never felt so refreshed after getting my sleep for 16 hours straight. hahaha! I slept at 2 pm and I woke up at 7 am the next day. Still not enough though. I need to finish another elevation for my other class so I need to work my ass off again.

Anyway, since I never posted my plates before since I suck at manual rendering, I wouldn't mind sharing my project now since I used 3DS Max for rendering. Yes, I crammed it. Yes, it is my first time to use photoshop. Yes, it is my first time to use 3ds max. I almost passed out from doing all of this so I'm going to share it. No shame. It's far from perfect but I think I did pretty well considering that it's a first for me.

We were asked to design a condo unit. Of course there's a design challenge but I wouldn't list it anymore. But we were asked to design a minimalist chic (Kelly Hoppen style) interior so I got all my inspiration from the design projects of Kelly Hoppen.

LOL. I wasn't able to finish rendering my ceiling plan and my media cabinet. The closet and the media cabinet should be floor to ceiling. Basically there should be drop ceiling for my lights but since I was running out of time, I wasn't able to finish it anymore. :( 

I know, the lighting sucks. I spent 2 hours figuring out how to fix the sun and my lights but I failed. I used like 20 target lights to substitute my sun. HAHAHAHA!

How I wish we were given enough time so I could've done it better.

At least somehow it turned out the way I wanted it to be. If only I could fix the textures, lights and my dining area it would be better. Anyway, we're moving on with 3DS Max and we'll use Reviit starting next week. Kinda sad that we only get one and a half month to learn it. I want to master 3DS Max so bad. I need a new laptop so I can practice it at home. Apple isn't a good choice for these kind of software since Windows is needed for the software to run. How I wish I could get new laptop for free. LOL. IN MY DREAMS. haha! 

Anyway, please stay tuned for my future posts. Thanks for reading. xx

20th birthday

LMFAO HAHAHAHA! LAST SELFIE BEFORE I TURN TWENTY :P

           

I just turned 20 years old! wow the day went by so fast and now I need to wait for another year to celebrate my birthday again. Isn't unfair that we only get to celebrate our birthday for one day? I wish we can celebrate it for a week. Like instead of calling it birth"day", we can normally greet the celebrant a happy birth"week"! lol. I'm never excited to celebrate my birthday since I turned 17 but during the day itself, I always wish that I can extend it. I need more time to celebrate this special day. Please tell me I'm not the only one who feels this way. haha!

Anyway, Nothing extravaganza happened during my birthday. To be honest, as simple as I may celebrate my birthday, the better. I don't want to throw a big birthday party. I prefer to celebrate my special day with few people who are really close to my heart - which are my family and my close friends. For this year, I get to celebrate my birthday with my mom, dad and my godmother. Since it is a weekday, my siblings couldn't make it because of school and work but that's fine.

Early in the morning, I went to school for enrollment. Then I went to the mall to buy myself a present and a milk tea since I haven't eaten anything the whole day until that night. I dropped by the church because it's a must and a priority. Then we went out for dinner and that is where my cheat meal begun. no. freaking. regrets. Every calorie is worth it. haha! We went to a buffet restaurant and as shallow as it may sound, but I've never felt so special because of the simple cake that they gave me. I like this kind of stuff. Simple yet very moving. :)

I'm so blessed that I get to celebrate my 20th birthday. I wouldn't be able to make it this far if it weren't because of God. Thank you so much Lord for giving me the gift of life. Thank you for giving me another year to fulfill my purpose here on earth. I glorify you Oh God and I love you.

I don't know how to start this post but I'm seriously determined to publish this since it's going to be my last post as a teenager. W!T!F!

I honestly don't know where this post is going. I feel like today is more special than my actual birthday tomorrow. I should be celebrating right now because today is my last day as teenager... and I'm dumbfounded. I know I shouldn't make a big deal out of it but how? We only live once and today is my last day as a nineteen year old. wow. Maybe I'm just bored that's why I find this over whelming (lol) but I cannot help but think back what happened to me all these years. where did my teenage years go? how tf did I spent it? why does everything happened so fast? can we turn back time? ugh.

Sure, I'm more matured now but I feel like I can still use a longer time to stay at this phase of my life. I'm not yet ready to be included in the line of 2. It's not that something has to be changed once I turned twenty but there's something about it that intimidates me. I used to think that people at this phase of their life has got their sh*t together but I was wrong. Everyone is trying to keep up with themselves and trying hard to succeed in life.. and I'm not sure if I'm ready for all of these. I feel anxious and I can't help but doubt my ability to face the real world... or maybe I'm thinking to much?
I really have no idea. Never did I imagined that I can use a Kylie Jenner gif to express myself right now. lol.

As much as I want to do something special today, I guess I don't have any choice but to spend it just like the usual. The rain is pouring like crazy these past few days so I can't go out. I wanted to stay at my grandmother's place but all my cousins are in school. So I guess I'll be spending it alone in my room- watching K dramas, refreshing my timeline and news feed, work out, sleep. Well at least there's no school so I'm good with it. :P

Birth Month

Whaaaaat??? It's already August!! wow I cannot process how fast time goes by! -ber months is fast approaching once again and I don't know what to feel about it, but I'm seriously in awe on how quick this year has been for me.

As you guys all know (or not) August is my birth month. 17th of August 1996 was the exact day I blessed this planet with my presence. lol. kidding. haha! As much as I don't want to care whether my birthday is getting near, my friends has no chill on reminding me. I should be happy since they remember my birthday but I'm so broke right now, I don't have any funds to treat all the people that I'm really thankful of for being part of my life.

*insert Kim So Hyun*

I cannot believe that in 13 days, I'll be saying goodbye to my teenage self. It makes me a little sad because if I'll be asked about the unforgettable memories that I created during my teenage life, I honestly couldn't think of much. All I did during my free time was binge watch korean dramas and fangirl over these goddess actors. By the way, I just finished watching My Love from the Other Star And OMG KIM SOO HYUN WILL YOU MARRY ME. This is the reason why I hate watching korean dramas, it's hard for me to move on and get over with it. Stalking the actors after finishing a drama is guaranteed. ugh. Anyway, besides that, I really can't think of any. Graduating from high school, entering college, meeting new friends, getting (or at least trying) to be a mature young adult, getting fit... these are the only things that I can remember. I feel like I've been missing a lot of things. I think I'm too good to remember any fun "crazy" memories that I did. Though there were few thing that I did or experience for the first time during my teenage year, I believe that it isn't too late, or shall I say it's never too late to experience the thrill of life.

For the last few days of being a 19 year old woman, I... I don't know. I have no plans but to finish all these korean dramas that I missed. It's my first time again to have a break after more than one year of continuous work, so it's the perfect time time to catch up on all the K dramas. haha!

PS: I'm now watching Reply 1988. PARK BO-GUM CAN YOU NOT. I CAN'T. huhuhu!
PSS: tbh, I want to stop watching it already because there were quite a few number of scenes that I find boring but I need to continue it for Park Bo-Gum. He's just too cute I cannot resist!

Finals

I have 3 more days left before this term ends and I'm super excited about it!! It's no joke studying in a school which has a trimestral system. You really need a grip because everything is happening too fast. Everything is in fast phase, you need to catch up and you barely have time to take a break. I feel like we just finished our mid term and now I'm down to my last 3 finals.

In all fairness, our finals is a little bit easier compared to our mid term. I have 2 scale models (group work), 2 plates and presentation, & defense. At least our scale model is in group of three's so the work load is distributed. I can't wait to finish our scale model and my presentations for my plates! We're already done with our first scale model for my History of Interior Design class (above photo) We finished everything in 4 hours!!! hahahahaha! It's in Biedermeier style, and to be honest it looks better than what we expected - considering that we crammed it in 4 hours. And now, we just have to finish our scale model for my Interior Design 1 class. We're doing an industrial interior and we realized that it was such a wrong move. Everything should be detailed, from the ceiling to the furniture. I'm hoping that we can finish it tomorrow since we're the first group to present on Tuesday. Wish me luck!! x

Pluviophile

It's already 6 in the morning. I woke up to the sound of heavy rain fall at 3 am and until now I'm still hoping for an announcement of class suspension. lol. I used to hate the rain because it makes me have a certain feeling I cannot explain. But now I learned to love it, it makes me feel relax and tranquil. 

I suddenly remember my conversation with my friend a few years ago. We were talking about what days are we most happy and she quickly answered every time it rains. I laughed at her because I thought most people prefer the hot weather here in the Philippines and so I told her that I didn't like the rain because of the undescribable feeling it makes me feel (too much "feels") lol. But now I understand why she answered it. As I get older I realize that it is the simple things that makes us happy. I learned to stop looking for happiness and I started creating it. We are completely in control of our feelings. As I try to be a mature young adult, I'm trying my best to control my emotions. It was a challenge for me to control it, but seriously speaking, prayer really helped me a lot. Everything can be resolved by a prayer. Remember, God is only one call away ;)


PS: They just declared class suspension from pre-school - HIGH SCHOOL. When will they learn that college students aren't water proof.
PSS: I just declared my own suspension. I'm not going to school I'm feeling under the weather. hahaha!

JUNE 2016

Here's a quick recap on how this month goes for me:
a lot or plate revisions, bedroom floor plan, bedroom reflected ceiling plan, bedroom elevation, bedroom perspective, toilet and bath floor plan, T&B reflected ceiling plan, T&B elevation, T&B perspective, client contract, concept, 3 living room perspective with required colored scheme, french baroque interior rendering, 4 plates for my history of interior design class, mock job interview + written exam

Just a typical month for an Interior Design student I guess? nothing really special happened, I was SUPER busy with school and it's only our midterm!! This has been the busiest month for me. Well I always do a lot of plates but this month has been incredibly mentally, physically and emotionally draining. I needed to finish 16 plates in a span one week. I was so busy with school I literally forgot to eat the whole day. Pulled an all nighter, I skipped my workout and I missed my best friend's birthday party. It's still fresh in my memory how drained I was while I was doing these plates. I wanted to cry so bad because of stress but I had no time. lol. The 3 living room perspective (upper right photo) that I did was so bad though. I usually finish 1 perspective for at least 10 hours and I finished those 3 plates for 9 hours. HAHAHAHA! No regrets! I didn't care anymore I just need to rest. The confusing thing about being a design student or a designer is that you really need to rest or you won't be able to perform your best but you have no time to rest because it takes 1 whole day just to finish 1 work. So it's either you did an excellent job but you didn't finish all the work, or you finish all the work but it isn't good enough. The struggle is real. :(

I'm just happy our midterm is finally over. And now I just realized that we only have one month left before our finals!! (trimester problem) Can't wait for this term to end!

REJECT.

~cue Tuloy Pa Rin by Ysabelle Cuevas~

According to Cambridge dictionary, reject is to refuse to accept, use, or believe something or someone; to not give someone the love and attention they want and are expecting from you. 

From my 19 years of existence I got rejected numerous times already. There were times that it did hurt a lot. I can certainly feel it within me but sometimes I can somehow feel the pain physically. There were times when my heart is beating so fast then all of a sudden I feel so numb and it feels like everything is in slow motion. I can feel each seconds that pass and I just want to stop. I don't even know what I want to stop but I want to pause or to freeze. But as I get mature on handling rejections, I just choose not to over think about it, lift it all up to God and move on with life.

There are many ways we can get rejected in life - from choosing a university, course, finding a job, love, applying visas, proposals, etc. the lists can go on and on. It is, of course, normal to get hurt when we get rejected. Sometimes rejection feels like a big slap on our face and telling us we are not good enough or we aren't worth the risk. But despite all these negative thoughts that's bugging our mind evert time we get rejected, I still believe that it is a blessings in disguise. Maybe what we want/ what we planned for ourselves isn't God's plan for us. It is easier to get angry or get disappointed once it happens to us but sometimes we shouldn't over think about it  because you might only end up blaming yourself or anyone. Life is a b*tch. I know sometimes it is tiring to be optimistic all the time because life will always keep on trying you. But just do it for yourself. Reacting negatively about it won't change anything. At least if you stay positive about it and thank God for closing the door that isn't for you, maybe He will let you open the door that you should have been entering. For God know the plans that He has for you, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11)

I'd like to end this post with this short note: God always has a reason for allowing things to happen. Even the things that we haven't even prayed for yet, He is already handling it for us. We may not understand the reason for evey thing, but we have to simply trust His will.

Change is Bound to Happen

I was browsing my pictures on my laptop just a few moments ago and I can't help but smile to myself because I cannot believe the numbers of selfies I've taken years ago. haha! I can't help but notice how much I've changed these years. Not only physically but emotionally and spiritually as well. It's so amazing how much photos can bring back memories and how it can help you realize how much blessing you've received all these years of your life.

I know that I have change a lot, especially these last 2 years - it was the turning point of my life. The amount of experiences I never thought I would encounter - the gallons of tears I've shed, thousands of prayer I've convey, the numbers of time I was on my knees, from experiencing all the stages of grief, and a lot more - never did I imagined that from these experiences I was able to build a strong relationship. The relationship I wouldn't trade anything for. The relationship I would forever cherish. My own relationship goal - It's my relationship with God. I've survived my gloomy days because it was His hand that I've seen through the greatest scheme of things. It was Him who gave me strength and who helped me get up when I was on my knees. It was Him who showed me that there's no such thing as 'bad life'. It was Him who gave me the courage to smile and look forward to future. It was Him who gave me wisdom and brings hope to my life.

Were these last 2 years the worst years of my life? To be honest, no. It was indeed different and unexpected but those were the years I get to know God and myself. It was the time I discovered who I really am and how much I'm capable of handling this so called 'life'. If I am given a chance to re-write anything that I want to change, I wouldn't alter anything. From my point of view it may not be the "perfect" scenario, or the "perfect" life that I was hoping, but without all these experiences I wouldn't be who I am today. I'm not perfect. I will never be perfect, no one can be anyway, but I'm proud to say that I don't regret anything. I learned to see the goodness in life. I learned to realized HOW MUCH blessings God is giving me everyday. I wouldn't ask for more. Everything I have is enough and maybe even more than enough. I will forever lift up my hands to Him and praise Him. Just like what I'm saying every time I talk to God: Lord, I accept you as my savior, you're the reason why we're here, please have your way in me, I fully surrender myself to you.

"Should I even be surprised that you're with me in disguise, for it's your hand I have seen in the greater scheme of things" - Pilgrim's Theme

School update

Hola! We had our midterm week last week and yesterday my profs already uploaded our midterm grades and I'm so happy with the results! If you know me personally, you would know that I wasn't the studious-type of person. I wasn't grade conscious, as long as I pass I'm already satisfied with it. But ever since I started taking up Interior Design, I want to excel on everything that I do - whether it's a minor or a major class. I really love my course even if it's so stressful at times. I'm so interested to learn and I'm always challenged to do and be my best. I could talk for hours about how I'm in love with my course but I'd rather save it for a separate post since I'm so tired right now and I want to sleep right after publishing this post. I got home at 10 pm and I wasn't able to sleep well last night so I'm really drained!

Anyway, before I end this post I would like to share you this book that I'm saving up for. It costs $190+ / 6,000+ php. My professor for my Interior Design Principle class gave me a pdf copy of it but I still like to have a hard copy. I still don't know that standard sizes of furnitures and spaces so I REALLT NEED this book. Why do it have to be so expensive :( If you would like to sponsor me please feel free to email me or comment on this post. lol. haha! As if :P

I have to end it here. bonne nuit!

x,

Klaire