Sunday, August 23, 2015

time check: 2:07 am
It is not unusual for me to wake up at this hour. I've read somewhere that maybe if we can't put ourselves to sleep, maybe because we haven't talked to God yet. 

We're busy running our own errands during the day so we tend to fall back to sleep right after a very long day. But sometimes we can't sleep even if we're already tired enough. Whenever I wake up at this hour and I can't put myself back to sleep, I usually take this time to reflect. For me this is the perfect time to read His word and reflect on it. I always feel at ease every time I do it because it feels like I'm really having a one on one conversation with Him. 

When was the last time you actually talked to God? He wanna know how your day went. God is longing for you. He wants to know how you feel. Talk to him like He's your best friend. He understands all your struggles, all your pain. Sometimes we tend to stress over things that we shouldn't stress about. You have a problem? why don't you surrender it all to God. Wherever you are, God put you there for a reason. Let Go of things that bothers you and Let God handle it. God's plans is always better than ours so trust in Him. Have faith and let God take over your life. Talk to him. If there's someone who can truly understand you, it is Him. Ask for his guidance and let his will be done.

Sunday, August 16, 2015

Thank You Lord God!

It's my birthday tomorrow and it's a little bit odd that I don't feel excited at all? Maybe because I don't have any plans... is this a sign of getting old? lol. I used to have several plans that I want to do a week before my birthday and have another plan for my actual birthday, but for this year I have none. I don't even feel like it's already my birthday again tomorrow. I was supposed to go out with my friends but I've been feeling dull these past few days and I keep on turning down plans, I don't feel like responding to any of my messages, I tend to shut people out... for short I just want to be on my own and complain how lonely I am. haha! It's becoming a hobby. lol. But seriously, I don't have plans for tomorrow except to workout and finish my plate. I still have a finals on Tuesday and I just want this semester to end and have my 5 day term break already. ugh.

Anyway, I'm turning 19 tomorrow (yes, I'm only/already 19) I still remember how I celebrated my last birthday and what my birthday wish was. I asked God to give me a memorable year and indeed, he gave me a VERY unforgettable year. There were a lot of unexpected changes this year. I wouldn't have thought that things would turn out the way they did. So far, this year is probably the most stressful year of my life. There were times that I was on my knees and I was asking God to fix all the mess and make everything work out, there were times that I just want to give up on everything and I was losing hope. I wouldn't say that I had a pleasant year but I won't say that I had the worst year of my life. Despite all the strenuous circumstances that God has given me, I'm really thankful that He let me experience all of it. I wouldn't wish for things to go the way they did but I'm still happy it all happened because I became closer to God. And I think that's the best thing that has ever happened to me and I'm really grateful that he did something to draw me closer to Him.

For my birthday wish this year, I just want to be genuinely happy. I want my loved ones to be happy especially my parents. I want to excel on my studies and make my parents proud. I don't want to wish for things to happen this or that way, I just want God to have his way in me. I want his will be done. I surrender myself to him and I trust His plans for me. This is my last year as a teenager and I can't wait to build new memories with God.

Thank you Mom for giving birth to me and thank you God for giving me the gift of life.
Live Jesus in our hearts, forever. That in all things, God may be glorified.

Saturday, August 1, 2015

Uni update

I actually forgot that I have a blog and that's my excuse for not posting for quite a long time. hehe! Anyway, 2 weeks from now I'm done with first term. Gosh it was so fast! I feel like we're just floating through time! It's already August (MY BIRTH MONTH!!! YEYY!) and -ber months is approaching again. 4 months went by so fast and to be honest it was a so-so experience. There were times that I don't wanna go to school because of my long breaks in between classes but I'm just so excited to learn everything related to my course. I've fallen in love with interior design more and more everyday and I can't wait to learn more in the future! Although I'm the "beginner" in our class (LOL) it's a challenge for me to do better on my plates. As much as I want to show you all the plates that I've done I don't think it's blog worthy enough. haha! maybe next time I'll show you some of it. I'm still not good at drawing but I think I improved... a little. LOL. I'll do better in the future I'm sure. :)

Anyway, that'll be all for my uni update. See you on my next post! x